10 of Swords (Ruin)

Ruin.  Reason divorced from reality.  Death.  Failure.   Disaster yet not entirely without hope.  Disruption.  Idle chatter.   Clever, eloquent and insolent person, impertinent yet with mirth.
 Spiritually, may herald the end of delusion. 

(taken from:http://www.rahoorkhuit.net/library/thoth/air/10_air.html

 well, according to recently drawn cards... 5 of swords,

7 of swords, and now the 10 of swords...
someone has been talking s__t about me.    ;)  

heh. (ref. aquarius? [heh]

 i do suspect who it might be, yet i know not to be overly concerned about it. 

'no matter what one tries to do, how much one gives, how much one sacrifices...

someone is going to think you are an a__hole*'

i've been known to say this quite often, so it helps to not take this information as terrible news.

 people will say this and that, the reality comes down to one's Act's, not what one's reputation amongst gossipers is. those that really matter as far as one's career, or associates, are the ones that recognize the integrity of the acts performed, and the sacrifices made. these are the people that make judgments for themselves...and pay little attn. to what others opinions are.

 that all being said... if anything, the days events will surely be interesting to say the least*

i am being told to focus on the heart of the matter....

either that, or that it will hurt my heart (feelings) when i find out what exactly has been said about me.

This card depicts the evolution of consciousness as it is described by Friedrich Nietzsche in his book, Thus Spake Zarathustra. He speaks of the three levels of Camel, Lion and Child. The camel is sleepy, dull, self-satisfied. He lives in delusion, thinking he's a mountain peak, but really he is so concerned with others' opinions that he hardly has any energy of his own. Emerging from the camel is the lion. When we realize we've been missing life, we start saying no to the demands of others. We move out of the crowd, alone and proud, roaring our truth. But this is not the end. Finally the child emerges, neither acquiescent nor rebellious, but innocent and spontaneous and true to his own being. Whatever the space you're in right now--sleepy and depressed, or roaring and rebellious--be aware that it will evolve into something new if you allow it. It is a time of growth and change. - Osho

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http://www.geocities.com/vortextarot/swords10.html

“Pain and foolishness lead to great bliss and complete knowledge, for Eternal Wisdom created nothing under the sun in vain.” - Kahlil Gibran